Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Awful songs sang by me are finished!

Finally, I met my promises to you. I sang it, recorded it and uploaded it. I regret making the promise to sing a christmas song. Now, it's your turn to regret for the bad voice is prepared for you to listen. lol.

Amazing Grace

And this audio can best describe what a hard job for me to learn to sing english songs. I ate tongue, lost the rhythm and misprononced the words. Anyway, it aches happily.

One night in Bangkok

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

The Archery Class Is Over

I love archery! But it comes an end. All of us passed the test. I made a score 3 rings above the acceptance rings. Not a good score taking my usual score into consideration. Anyway, I love archery.

Monday, December 1, 2008

Just Look Further

Addiction is without doubt a bad thing, really bad, especially to online games. I haven't played that for totally half an year. I'm peaceful, until today, they say something new with the game, my blood burned. Damn!
I was thinking...maybe I could creat a new game ID, play it slowly and leisurely so that it won't damage my studies. Bullshit! You can make as many excuses as you can if you want something. Just look further, what you'll gain from it. You won't be satisfied with such a low process, you would say I should do everything as well as I can including game, then you go into it again. See, two inner voices, they are battling.

You say you won't regret

You say you won't regret playing the game
I know you are comforting yourself
or just pretending to be a strong man
after you did the wrong thing

You said you were green hand
maybe you said it truly
maybe you just want to receive more praise
Someone think you are modest
but I often suspect it

You are regretting now
afraid of innuendo to yourself
Just a poem, little to do with truth
you are comforting yourself,
you are a fool

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Superior Scribbler Award

So there are these awards which circulate among bloggers as a way of granting recognition and praise. I see them all the time... But have never actually received one. Till Charli of Broken Mannequin so kindly bestowed upon me the Superior Scribbler Award. I am honored and surprised. Thank you Charli and thank you to everyone who reads and comments! (A new poem coming soon!)So here are the rules for this award:1. Each Superior Scribbler must in turn pass The Award on to 5 most-deserving Blogger Friends.2. Each Superior Scribbler must link to the author & the name of the blog from whom he/she has received The Award.3. Each Superior Scribbler must display The Award on his/her blog, and link to This Post which explains The Award.4. Each Blogger who wins The Superior Scribbler Award must visit This Post and add his/her name to the Mr. Linky List. That way, they’ll be able to keep up-to-date on everyone who receives This Prestigious Honor!5. Each Superior Scribbler must post these rules on his/her blog.So... Here are the bloggers' blogs to whom I bestow the gift bestowed upon me:

Friday, November 28, 2008

An Amazing Guy

I knew Nick Vujicic on the Thanksgiving party last night. Bro Chong gave a presentation about him in front of us. He is a really amazing guy. I like to show it to all of you.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Never Took The Time

A bad experience with a stranger on the street, an unfavorable passion and a song "Never Took The Time" by Akon contribute to this shabby poem.

So many people
on the crowded street
heading for shool
the destination
where I can
do nothing

I was accelerating.

A woman blocked my way
A stranger
Not like a person seeking help
but making trouble.
An interrupter.

Retracting my sight
back to the ground
Never took the time
to stop
But I forgot to retract my ear
was chiding
behind my back

I couldn't help
taking the time
to be

I criticized
people were becoming cold with each other
This time I know
I'm not the exception.
I'm thinking of you,

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

This Morning

This is my first attemp to write an English poem, don't be polite to point it out if I profane the beauty of it.

This morning
After I got up
From bed
Got one short message
it's from Mama

What are you up to?
she asked.
Preparing for the exam this afternoon
I answered.
I realize
it's not a regular greating
at this moment
from Mama

There was another message
before this one.
My christian friends invite me
to the Thanksgiving party
tomorrow night.
I accepted it being thankful.
Just the same time
Mama asked me
What are you up to?

but not totally.
Mama worry about me
for this blog
she is afraid that
I'm effected by thoughts
of foreign churches.
How does she know
could it just be that
she is Mama

I mentioned
the resignation
don't wanna
hide too many
and too much
in front of

Mama is Mama
she is always considering me
as a child
she cares
she fears
she doesn't want me
to lose myself
I do, Mama
and that's what I hide
from you.

Take care
Don't stay up late
Buy what you want to eat
I know it's
Mama's way of saying
She always say goodbye
to me
in that way
Mama is

Monday, November 24, 2008

A Big Decision I Made

Befor I write about the decision, I should first make appologise to all of the readers of the blogs who care me and have given me so much motivation to life. I was sick these days and met a lot of difficulites of study, party and mental affairs. Now, everything took a favorable turn. I'm not the vice chairman of the Party branch any more. I handed in the resignation last night and finally it was proved. I don't care my cadre career, and I find the good replacer for the position. I just feel sorry to my boss. He chosed the wrong person and I 'm the very one.

The moment I went out of his office, I took a deep sigh. I am free!

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Reject and Receive

This noon, I took an appointment to have lunch with one of my christian friend. We didn't talk anything about God during the lunch but all the things we were up to last week. When we aparted, he gave a book to me whose article is GEGIN YOUR NEW LIFE.
It says that there is a normal relationship between God and the person, which should be definetely known by every christian. If you don't realize it definetly, it's impossible for you to experience the true happiness of your life. When you accept him as your father, he will enter your life.
I should say I sometimes invite him into my heart. I sometimes really need him and sometimes just forget him. I'm not good for I don't treat religion seriously enough. When I makes a mistake, I think of him begging for his mercy. When I feel sad, I let him see my tears. Whenever I'm dreaming, I hope God can hear my voice. And, I am not be frightened that easily when I think of him. I wonder whether it's because they don't believe God or anything that let themselves stand alone on the top of the floor then fell to the ground. It is often reported someone took suiside in the campus. They do this because they are sad and of no hope, which can't be seen from the face of every christian I know. That's what I should say thanks to God.
I'm so selfish for I only receive from God but I do nothing for him. I am supposed to spread his love to others, however, on the contrary, I'm developing new party members and tell them there is no God. Irony. I'm embarrassed about myself.
I can't sing Amazing grace like a pop song whenever I want to without thinking about the meaning of the lyric. I think God will punish me if I sing like that. Now whenever I want to sing it, I sing from the bottom of my heart. Oh, I don't forgot the promise about singing Silent Night on Christmas eve. Haha, I know that's a very old song, but I can't help singing it everytime I left the lab for my dorm on the cold dark midnight in Beijing.
I'm busy with my work, and perhaps with my heart.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Time is not enough for me!

All is in a rush! Things seems endless to me. First, I'm busy with my developing party member task. Sounds ridiculous, huh? They are trying to make me believe in God in our every gatherings, and want to spread christianity to every corner of the world. But, to the opposite point, I'm trying to develop party members by letting them believe nothing. That's an irony perhaps more ridiculous than Buddha--a symbol of peace--was awarded to a factory whose primary purpose was the construction of nuclear missiles. I'm bad...

Second, my boss of the labs requried me to creat map layer on the GIS photos which were taken by satellite. I have to learn to use photoshopCS2. Last night, I learn it for the first time. It's really hard to make the first step, I think, for everything. It cost me the totally four hours only accomplishing these three pictures. I will show them to you. Sorry for the shabby stuff.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Fall in Love with Anthem

I joined a young Christian party last night. We sang a lot of Anthem. I enjoyed singing together with them. The songs threw light on my heart and I felt myself warm and purified. I wanted to sing for ever.
I found Amazing Grace, a really beautiful song. If only I have sang it when I was young. I also find Silent Night, a christmas song. Hopefully I can learn to sing it, and before the Christmas Eve, I can upload it on my blog as a gift to all of you, my dear friends.
I like to sing. I'm always thinking of the days I sang as the leader of lee club of our school. I didn't realize what a beautiful thing singing is at that time. I should have joined the choir of the church and sang for all beautiful things, including people and animals I loved, cared and missed. Now my voice is not as pure as that of a child, so is my heart. I beg god, purify my heart, removing the black and let sun shine always in my heart.
I'm so graceful that you know I hate and fear loneliness. So you bring some amazing people to me as my friends. I will treasure all the friends you gave me. You love me, and let people love me, I will spread the love.
It's amazing that I received a free meal from one of my mates. The reason why he treated me a rich meal is that he knew I was sick for 36 hours non-sleeping. Though he is not a Christian, there's love inside of him. Do we really created from the figure of you? and inherit some of your kindness? I have no idea. But I'm thankful, truely...
Last night, at the time of praying, we hand in hand, with our eyes closing, spoke to you. I prayed for my parents, my brother, and all my friends. I thought of you, yes, you're reading my blog, I prayed for your health and longevity and the day we're meeting. I love you.

Sunday, October 26, 2008


This afternoon, I went to an auditoria rather than church with a christian. It's a small room full of people. The priest stood in front of us, beside him is an Electronic Keyboard. No candles, no cross.
I'm so unfamiliar with the atmosphere, but not uncomfortable. They sang songs I never heard of before and murdered something strange. We asked to stand up and prayed for the God. Someone at this moment played the keyboard. And the priest said something while we are praying. I cried. I just couldn't hold myself.
Later was the teaching of the Bible. But I don't like the translation of it. I think I will look at the English version.
I just cannot understand why I cry so heavily at that time...

I bought a bike

I found a second-hand bike on the internet. We came to an agreement at the preliminary price of 200 yuan on the phone. The next day, I came to her campus to pay and get my bike.
Her beautiful face caught my breathe when I first met her. We asked each other's hometown and found we are half Lao Xiang( people of the same province ) for she is from Shanghai. I became dumb when I talked with her on the price. So I just payed her 200 yuan. I tried the bike in front of her and found it easy to ride, which proved to be wrong later.
I came back to the university riding the second-hand new bike. Damn, I just found it really an ass work to ride this bike. Perhaps I was too excited to ride in front of her just now. I just found an old lady rode faster than me on the street!
Finally I arrived at the university. I should buy a new lock, though there is one on the bike which seems not secure. The bike repairman said my bike was worth 100 yuan. I knew I was cheated. Now I was reminded the saying the more beautiful a woman looks, the easier it is for you to be cheated. Out of my expectation, she confessed to me that she sold the bike just at the price when she bought it which made her feel compunctious. So I let her to treat me a meal. She accpeted it. So I began wondering whether she has a boyfriend... Haha, it turned out to be a good deal to me!
Oh, I should tell you why should I equip my bike with two locks. Bike stealing is so rampant in our campus. If your bike is new, they will steal your bike; if your bike is shabby, they will steal your lock. Bless both of my bike and locks.

Monday, October 20, 2008

A Wonderful Day

This is a very special night to me. Very unexpected, a night I never imagined like that. It's a night perhaps will change my belief forever. My thoughts are so complicated right now that I have to hold on some minutes to write it down instead of going to study in the library.

I received a call by a stranger yesterday on my GRE course. It's a man's voice. He said he got my number from a Korean studying in China. But I don't know any Korean student studying in Beijing. He explained that if I remember the three Korean travellers whom I accompanied during the summer vocation. Then, I know why. He invited me to a party some time later. I accepted it.

I met him tonight at one of the dining halls of my university. He messaged me telling that he would arrive 3 minutes later than the appointment time and he arrived just 2 minutes later of it. I wonder what a guy he is for there seems no need informing someone with such a short delay. Finally, I met him. Shorter but bigger than me. What impressed me most is his face, very affable and kind. In a word, he is totally absent from what I've imagined from his voice on the phone.

We just ordered some simple dishes at the dining hall. Then we started chatting. I know he has worked for 7 years after gruduation, that means he's 8 years older than me. I suspected he's a gay, but immediately negated myself. Although he hasn't married, he has a gril friend and very happy to answer my questions about her. I'm very sorry to doubt this in my heart, but this is very strange talking with a guy you even don't know before for such a long time face to face. I just feel uncomfortable at first, though peaceful as the talking goes. The reason why I feel uncomfortable is that I have to avoid eye contact from time to time. When he look at somewhere I have to look at him to show that I'm interested in what he was talking and when he look at me, I have to switch my sight to somewher else and pretend it at ease. In fact, I like to watch people's eyes to see their heart but I'm shy to do so. Why can't we look at each others's eyes when we talking?

He is a Christian while I'm a party member. He believe God while I should believe nothing. He became a Chistian when he was senior. I have to metion it again that he is perhaps the most different person I've ever seen. He told me he seldom smile after he entered junior middle school because his parents get along with each other badly. It's normal for him to not to talk to anyone for a week. One day before he was introduced to the Bible and Jesus, he was puzzled at the problem What do I live for? He thought hard but failed to get the answer. A girl, one of his classmates appeared to him telling him something about God. If he was not trapped by the problem, he wouldn't have a try. But this time, he just tried. He joined a group of people. A man asked them a question What do you live for? He was shocked. It was the very problem bothered him alot. Someone said for money, someone thought for family...It was his turn. He said for love. The love between parents and children, between a man and a woman, between friends and between human and animals. From then on, he turned himself a christian slowly.

He once asked help for psychologists, but gained nothing from them. Howerver, when he got to Jesus, he began to smile, and it's sensed by all his classmates. I asked him if he hate his parents for their bad marrige. He said they gave him one thing very pricious is that don't accept bribes. Both of his parents are government officials who are party members. I couldn't ask him why they're not getting along with each other well, what I know is that they 're very upright and stubborn. He said he love his parents at a level. But after he became a christian, he love the God at the highest level and he love his parents at a much higher level than before. He had a hard time with his parents for what he's done and now he get along with him better and better. He spoke slowly and peaceful, I've never thought of a man who can give me so deep soul speeh. I just can't imagine. Yet, he did it, very honestly. I just forgot the age, we were chatting deeply and out of soul. He must be the person sent by God to meet me, or, why can he touch my inside with his holiness so truly.

I've told him that I was a party member on our first phone talking. At that time, I was a little proud of saying so. However, after I heard so much from him I just felt a little shameful to metion it again. I dare not but have to say I feel a pity to chose to believe nothing. I can sense the warmth thinking of God but refuse to confess. Hope is a beautiful thing and that's the gift God give us. When I'm hopeless and I choose nothing to believe, I'm lonely.

To my surprise, during our chatting, he greeted many students of BUAA. He is not a graduat from BUAA, how can he know so many students who are strangers to me. Because they are all christians. They know each other in the church. He greeted all of these christians so warmly, which impressed me a lot. And I stood up following him and greeted them asking if they are christians? They all answered yes without any hesitation.

Knowing that I plan to go to study abroad he invited me to join a party to be held the day after tomorrow. Most of the party members are returnees and christians. He thought I can gain something useful from them. What a kind man! What's more, we plan to go to church this weekend. You know, I've never been to the church. It's forbidden for party members to go to churches, however, I think I will still go to visit it.

A wonderful day, isn't it. Like a dream... I still cannot believe it.

Friday, October 17, 2008

Rabbit Will Fly

This week I really gained a lot. All the courses, such as GIS, OS, Oracle, PL/SQL, Compiling, Java and Embeded System, went smoothly for me. I find the deeper I learn these courses, the more I seek fun from them. In additon to these required courses, I apply for labs from my teachers. Two for GIS and one for a on-line game. The professor gave me a task to check whether I'm qualified to join the lab team. I know how important the task is to me! So these days I'm trying hard to learn how to use the ArcGis software. I want to leave a deep impression on him with my work.
When I was walking between dorm and classroom, I think a lot. I think of my work to do, my parents, my friends and America. After I think all of it, I just accelerate my steps. I'm motivated.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Summary of This Week

Hey, friends. I'd like to let you know what I was doing this week. First, I should say sorry for not updating my blog often as before. Please forgive me. Because it's already eleven when I go back dorm and the electricity will be out of supply after half past eleven since the season went into fall. And sometimes when I have thouhts to share with you, it's no time; while when I have time, I just have no thought to share. The key words of my feeling of this week are: rich and busy.
Things make me happy:
1. My oracle teacher said I was a wise man! Haha, it just made me happy for total 3 minutes. He's a really kind old man. What he surprised me a lot is his complicated background. He was born in Japan, grew up in America, got a master's degree in Canada, and now live in China teaching us Oracle and English! His parents are Norweqians. I wonder what's his nationality. He said he is Chinese, but I don't think so. Whatever, he is really funny and kind. I like him and his teaching style. He sang songs while typing commands and said I like oolong cha(a kind of tea in China) while drinking tea. I never feel tired learning from him.
2. I learnt how to program on Redhat using Shell on the OS class. It's a great experience programming on Linux. Although now I can only write some simple commands on it, I think it won't be a long time when I can understand the kernel of Linux with hardwork on it.
3. I chose archery as my physical course this semester. I'm herculean(I just learn this word from GRE course today) as I can full draw easily. I'm quite good at shooting. I got the highest score at the rifle competition during the millitary training at my first year in the university. So perhaps I can do well in archery. It's strang that an image of Cupid just thrilled through my mind. Is he good at archery? lol
4. Today I went to GRE course. The course is held by the most famous educational services in China called New Oriental. It cost me 1580yuan($200) but it worth the money as soon as I took the first class. It's probably the most brilliant teacher I've ever met. Today he taught us wrting, and tomorrow, there 'll be another teacher to teach us reading. I'm looking forward to another excellent speech.

It's only one week after the holiday, but we all busy with our works. I like the high pace. It's a great feeling that everyday you learn something and everyday you can surprise yourself by what you've learnt today. My buddy call me to have a game with him. I'll accept the invitation. After all, it's the first game this week, I have to relax myself a bit.

Monday, October 6, 2008

My Desktop

This is my desktop, in the middle is my timetable.


Today is special to me, because it seems that many things that can make me unhappy just happened all together. What's strange is that I can't figure out what upset me clearly. Let me just tell you about all these things.
This semester is really different from those of the first two years in the university. I've told you about it. The fee is three times higher, the schoolworks ask for more teamwork. It's wise to have good students as your team members, then your school work will be going smoothly. We have decided all of the members of our team before the national holiday and some of them are my good friends. However, when I came back to school, things changed. Some of them just went to other teams leaving their promises behind. I'm not happy about it, but I've nothing to say. If they want, let it be.
During the first two years of university, I did nothing but was digging a tomb of myself. Online games, absent from classes, being cold with people(I did not realize it until one day one my buddy told me I was always talking about world of warcraft and I seem to live in another world like a mummy. I knew I had been cold ).I hate online games, or rather, I hate myself. I'm a fool knowing that I'll feel regret for what I've done today but kept on playing the game. Now I do feel regret, totally. Now, I should pay for that. And today it's just the beginning. I'm ready mentally.
Two years of wasting time makes me not just gain less knowledge but the fewer experiences of working with students around me. I treated them coldly and they turned it back. I should not complain, that's what I deserve to.
So, it's a big deep tomb! See what I have done. Damn it. Is it too late to be a better man? I don't know. But whatever, I'll have a try. I've quited online games for half a year, and I think I'll never pick it up if I'm still a student. Just do it. I finally join a great team letting them know it's a big deal having me as a team member(haha).
Yes, I will never pick up on-line games. You see, I'm very happy writing this blog. I like share all of my thoughts with you, my friend. Once a buddy on AIM said to me that you're really like to interact with people. He's right. But do you know why. Because I've been too silent with people the first two years but I'm not a silent guy. So now, I really appreciate the interaction of our friendship with you. It's a far better feeling than that of world of warcraft.
These days I'm trying hard to apply for the lab of one of my professors. Though it's tough, I'll keep improving myself to meet the requirements of the position. The tasks of this semester are really challenging. I have to learn GIS (geography information system), Operating System, compile theory, Java and Oracle. What's more, English! I have to pass GRE and TOEFL in one year. Ohhhhhhhhh, now my blood is boiling. I like to take challenges. Forget the fucking tomb, no one can block my way to success! Rabbit, go ahead!

Friday, October 3, 2008

Chinese songs

female singers
1.隐形的翅膀(Invisible wings)  by 张韶涵
2.那些花儿(that flower)  by 范玮琪
3.我愿意(I will)  by 王菲
4.但愿人长久(May we all be blessed with longevity, written by Su Shi) by 王菲
5.说爱你(say love you)  by 蔡依林
6.日不落(sun never fall)  by 蔡依林
7.欧若拉(Aurora)  by 张韶涵
8.寓言(fable) by 张韶涵
9.流年(fleeting time)  by 王菲
10.漫漫人生路(long long life road)  by 邓丽君
11.甜蜜蜜(sweet sweet sweet)  by 邓丽君
12.月亮之上(above the moon)  by 凤凰传奇
13.橄榄树(olive)  齐豫
14.乡间小路(country road) 齐豫
15.恰似你的温柔(your softness)  蔡琴
16.如果的事(if)  范玮琪
17.一个像夏天一个像秋天(one is like summer the other is like fall)  范玮琪
18.lydia  sang by f.i.r
19.我们的爱(our love)  f.i.r
20.绿光(green light)  孙燕姿
21.天路(road to heaven)   韩红
22.神话(myth)  韩红、孙楠

male singers
1.七里香(seven mile fragrant) 周杰伦
2.简单爱(simple love) 周杰伦
3.青花瓷(bule and white porcelain) 周杰伦
4.吻别(kiss goodbye) 张学友
5.大城小爱(big city small love) 王力宏
6.心中的日月(sun and moon in my heart) 王力宏
7.美人鱼(mermaid) 林俊杰
8.江南(river south) 林俊杰
9.十年(decade) 陈弈迅
10.敢不敢(dare you) 罗志祥
11. melody 陶喆
12.光辉岁月(glary time) beyond
13.无与伦比的美丽(uncomparable beauty) 苏打绿
14.曾经的你(you) 许巍
15.蓝莲花(blue lotus flower) 许巍
16.千里之外(thousand of miles away) 周杰伦、费玉清
17.快乐崇拜(happyness adorement) 潘玮柏、张韶涵
18.倾国倾城(Drop-dead gorgeous) 阿宝
19.童话(fairy tale) 光良
20.想太多(think too much) 李玖哲
21.月亮代表我的心(the moon represents my heart) 齐秦
22.大约在冬季(in winter) 齐秦
23.有没有人告诉你(if someone tell you) 张楚生

These music are of all kinds. It cost me so much time to paste each link. Hope you like it.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Back Home

Today is national day of China, we have a seven day long holiday. So I came back home to see my families. Yeah, after seven months away from home, I miss my dad, my mom and my brother very much. It's a one thousand kilometer railway from Beijing to my hometown. The train drags. It stops at every station, and my hometown is just the last station. There are nearly 20 stations. Each station costs 5 minutes on average and not take the slowing down into account. So all in all, it took me 15 hours on the train, and a delay of an hour! Fortunately, I could sleep on the train, bearing the loud cry of kids nearby, I had several breaks. Therefore, when I got out of the train, smelling the familiar moist air of hometown, I just got energetic, I'll see my mom!

My dad received me at the railway station. He caught sight of me before I recognized him! That pleased me a lot for last time at this place, he just couldn't find me from the crowd. That was not his fault, my poor dad because at that time I was so thin, wearing a hair uncut for months and dressing myself like a beggar. So this time, before I went out of school, I ate a lot, drank a lot and cut a lot to meet the expectation of all my families. Yes, I'll stay at home for only four days, so, whatever, I should behave myself as well as I can!

Mom is beautiful as always. I don't think she is a women at her 45. In comparison, my dad is quite old. Haha, I wonder how can my dad marry my mom, is there some tricks? And there's a bad news, my brother lost his hair and is marching on the group of the bald. After all, he is my funny brother, it seems that his head doesn't bother him any more. He even showed his fake hair in front of me and scared me saying that's the hair from a dead man. OMG. He knew I had seen a horror movie about that, so he scared me on purpose! Luckily, that's not from a dead man. That's for dead head, haha.

My mission of this holiday is chatting a lot, eating a lot and sleeping a lot. Oh, I'll show some photos about my home. Mom refuse to upload her photo on my blog. She said don't take photo on me when I'm not made up.

Friday, September 26, 2008

Thoughts From Poisoned Dairy Product

We Chinese never focus on the national exemption system(NES) like today.

In fact, several years ago, someone put forward a proposal to cancel NES. At that time, one and another product approved by NES went into trouble. Now, when it is refered to some big milk brands like 三鹿、伊利、蒙牛, 三鹿 is the biggest brand for milk power and done the talking by many famous stars. 蒙牛 is the special use milk for Chinese Astronauts and 伊利 is done the talking by the world famous 110 hurdle athlete LiuXiang. Now more and more people wonder what the NES brings to us? Even thought the quality of a product is great and stable, who can promise there's nothing wrong with it all the time.

In my opinion, NES means testing department gives up it's legal responsibility.

I can't help asking why does NES exist in the competitive market nowadays?

I found the reason from the internet. NES's real purpose is to remove regional protectionism. Before NES was released, many big brands of products were refused because they were not approved by the local testing department. A local director of AQSIQ even said " No problems of products won't be detected if they are tested by me". Many companies complained to the general testing department, so NES was born. NES helps the big companies be bigger and break the block of local protectionism. But in my point of view, it's also a deprivation of rights from the local by the central.

I should say NES solved some problems for the big companies at it was released. But it ran counter to original purpose further and further as time goes by. On one hand, companies left no stones unturned to be proved by NES, on the other hand, the goverment green-lighted local companies out of identity of interests. Approving of layers and layers became decorations if all the relationships were put through(relationship means a lot in China).

From then on, the NES is just like a shoes with many holes gamed by all sides of interests and degenerated into a tool for collusion between officials and businessman.

But even so, I'm confident with the government. Let's rub our eyes and wait.

(Oh, I'm not good at writing this kind of article, let alone in English. I must have made many many mistakes because I even make some words like green-lighted by myself. Forgive my folly)

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Shenzhou 7th Spaceship Was Launched Tonight

Shenzhou means godlike ship. It's a series name of China's spaceship carrying people. The 7th held 3 astronauts to the space, and one of them will take a walk outside the spaceship. It's a very special time for all Chinese, especially us , the student of BUAA. Because many of the scientists studying the spaceship graduated from BUAA. You have known the Moon Festival, whose story is just a description of the dream we Chinese dreamt thousands years ago to explore the world outside the earth. And it came true after the footprint stepped by the American. Yes, that's a dream of all our mankinds.And I hope it's not a long time before we Chinese can land on the moon.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Today Is Full Of Fun

Saturday comes! It's a relax time, a celebration to get away temporarily from business of school work and to celebrate one of my roommate's 20th birthday. Seven of the eight roommates joined the celebration( the other guy just did his own business ). We advanced to the amusement park. Haha, it's unusual for us seven guys got together for entertainment outside except Karaoka. And we all enjoyed ourselves to the full. We did a lot of X-games in the amusement park. Of course X-games. What else can we do there! We didn't take our girl friends with us, besides, most of us don't have girl friends. You must feel sorry knowing it. Haha.
I'll show you some photos of me and my roommates, they are all cool guys!

This is the classical formation of the liberation army on the stage in the 60s.
Good background.
I and my bro on his birthday.
So horrible that I don't want to take another try. When the machine accelerated, my calf muscles draged me as if they are not mine.
We had a buffet dinner.
Two hours later... Isn't it ugly? Haha, don't take it seriously. It just happens when I eat food more than enough.
Do you know the hit machine? It's a game to test how strong of your blow. I defeated my two strongest guys with a score of 81t to 74t and 81t to 79t. Even I couldn't believe it. However, the price if high, I sprained my wrist because I eased my strength in advance. It is aching still.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

The First Class Of The New Semester

Boring, this is the only word I can describe the first class. The course is named Operating System, which I'm very eager to learn. However, all the signs of the class tell me I've expected it too much. The key factor is the teacher. Though in the university, self-study is rather important, a good teacher can surely guide you to help you study faster and more effectively. It seems no hope for me to gain much from him. His voice is really bad. He doesn't have a strong accent, nor does his volume. But he talks just as he has not only one throat. Imagine what that would be like. You can hear something but can not catch it let alone keep it in mind. If you record his voice, maybe it can be a good music for sleep(Stu, maybe you can try it, haha).

Well, no matter how bad it is, I'll go on learning in my way. Hopefully, the next two classes in the afternoon can give me surprise!

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

A New Start

My junior semester will start tomorrow. I shall work hard from now on. Less games, less hesitation, more works on some meaningful things: improve my GPA, keep a good interaction with my friends, update my blog whenever I have some thoughts to share, improve my English etc. The tuition of this semester is three times larger than before, I can't afford it if i'm just playing through this semester. I have a clear goal: go to the US, a country of freedom. Nothing can help me to go there but the hardwork of myself. However, I don't think I'm the person who is strong enough to chase his dream to the end. Sometimes, I make the front big while the end small though I hate it. Why do I still can't find something to keep motivating me to step forward all the time? Is my life so good that makes me lose morale? No, I know it clearly that I'm not satisfied with my life now. I hate it I still earn my living depending on my parents when I'm this old. Perhaps I say too much and do too little. Shameful.

Monday, September 15, 2008

I watched the weight lifting of Paralympics

The weight lifting of both Olympics and Paralympics is held in one of the gyms of my university. Today my friend told me that the university student are free to watch the game, I quited my work at once heading for the gym.

There were so many audiences here at the gym. This was my first time to see so many disabled people on their wheelchairs. I adore them for their positive attitude to life. I'm not sure whether I'll be as strong as them if I'm disabled. I don't want to watch the Paralympics on TV, the only reason of that is I feel heart broken seeing so many disabled bodies. However, if I am the disabled athlete, I think I need audiences to support me, not avoiding eyesight. We should not just feel I'm sorry facing the disabled, I think we'd better treat them just like ordinary people.

As an audience, I think the competitive atmosphere is more or less coverd by the warm air of friendship and care. Every athlete, no matter win or lose, received a warm applause. Everyone is a winner just appearing on the stage. In my heart, I want to give each of the athlets a warm hug.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

My cat died

My cat, as a matter of fact, she's my roommate's, died tonight, the full moon night. I write this article to memory her, although the time we spent is no more than four days, apparently we've built a relationship which make me really sad now.

She fell from the 6th foor, she wasn't killed at once, and when we found her, she's already there about 5 minutes. She fell down from the the dormitory opposite from the one next to us. Nobody know how she fell down. Is she murdered or is it just an accident? I can't believe someone will kill the lovely cat on purpose, if it was indeed caused by someone, he must don't meant to.

I watched her dying, she kept her eyes wide open, starring at me. I touched her hair, I felt the temperature of her skin was falling. She had no strength to breath, at intervals, she opened her mouth to take a cough. Her mouth and nose seep with blood. Just kept her eyes wide open, starring at me. Not too long, she died, with her eyes still open. I tried to close her eyes, failed.

When you don't have the ability to take care of an animal, don't do it. And it reminds me of my dog again. Wish you happy in paradise, the full moon witness.

Today is Mid-Autumn Festival

Tonight the moon will be the fullest ever, because it's Mid-Autumn Festival or you can call the Moon Festival. It's one of the three biggest troditional festivals in China. We have three-day holiday on this day. This is the time when families get together watching the moon. We have a rich dinner tonight. What make it different are the mooncakes and pomegrantates. 

There is a long story of the origin of the Moon Festival. I'll write it for short. Long long time ago, there were 10 suns in the sky, 9 of which were shot down by a man called Hou Yi. Hou Yi married a beautiful woman Chang Er. One day Hou Yi got a elixir from the queen mother of the west. Because it was only one, he couldn't take it for he don't want to leave her wife alone. So he let Chang Er keep it. But one of Houyi's prentices found where the elixir was hiden. When HouYi was out hunting, he forced Chang Er to take out the elixir, she tooke it instead of handing it out. So Chang Er flied away to the sky. She settled at the moon which is the nearest place to HouYi.

These are moon cakes we eat tonight.

This is my favorite poem about the Moon Festival. It's written by Su Shi(Song dynasty).
I 'll show you the English version.

"Thinking of You"

When will the moon be clear and bright?
With a cup of wine in my hand, I ask the blue sky.
I don't know what season it would be in the heavens on this night.
I'd like to ride the wind to fly home.
Yet I fear the crystal and jade mansions are much too high and cold for me.
Dancing with my moon-lit shadow
It does not seem like the human world
The moon rounds the red mansion Stoops to silk-pad doors
Shines upon the sleepless Bearing no grudge
Why does the moon tend to be full when people are apart?
People may have sorrow or joy, be near or far apart
The moon may be dim or bright, wax or wane
This has been going on since the beginning of time
May we all be blessed with longevity Though far apart, we are still able to share the beauty of the moon together.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

The policy of religion in China

Every Chinese citizen is free to choose what God to believe. It's permitted by the law. If you are a party member of Chinese communist, that means you choose no god to believe. That's your choice, so don't say that there is no religious freedom for party members. The base of the theory of Chinese communist is Marxizm, a tatally materialism, which means we don't believe there is a god or soul.
In most countries, there's no collision between politicl belief and religious belief and always the latter has a deep influence on the former. Americans absolutely won't choose a man who is buddhist or Muslem as their president. The president of Arbic countries must be muslem. However only communist countries advocate atheism and all the things are based on science, which makes Americans think incredible.
Well, I don't believe there is a god. But I do believe someone believe there's a god and god blesses them. I believe miracles, and for someone who believe god, there is a miracle. Were there a God, I pray all my friends(especilly Charli) will be healthy all the time.

Friday, September 12, 2008

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Chapels In China

Though I'm not a Christian, I respect God. He saves my grandparents from despair, sorrow and loneliness. My grandpa died from cerebral thrombosis. When he was alive suffering the pain of illness, he couldn't talk or move. My grandma took care of him carefully. She had nothing to do but took care of him. One day, a group of people came to her house, brought god to her. From then on, she could read books, write characters and talk to people from the church. Everyday is substantial for her. I'm thankful for god, he does a really good thing for my grandma. It just remind me of the song When you believe...
There are many Christians in China, so are the chapels. I will show you some.